04:38 - Woke up sweating from a horrifying dream. Thought 'remember not to use
your toilet it's getting fixed, walk down the hall'.
your toilet it's getting fixed, walk down the hall'.
07:50 - Woke up groaning audibly, yet again from the same or similar horrifying
dream. Thought 'death' and 'dying' and 'tiring'.
dream. Thought 'death' and 'dying' and 'tiring'.
09:57 - Walking to the bathroom thought 'my jeans are fantastically tight and I'm
ready to party'.
ready to party'.
10:09 - Thought 'fuck this fuck this fuck this'.
12:00 - Watching my creative director design a calendar thought 'yes', 'Investec' and
'put a grid on it' in the same tone that I would have said 'put a bird on it'.
12:39 - Thought 'fuck this shit'.
12:44 - Thought 'I would almost marry you if we weren't completely different people
and if you cared about me'.
12:44 + 3 seconds - Thought 'that was a lie thought'.
13:03 - Looking at myself in the mirror thought 'my boobs are rocking' and 'wish my
period boobs were my regular boobs'.
12:00 - Watching my creative director design a calendar thought 'yes', 'Investec' and
'put a grid on it' in the same tone that I would have said 'put a bird on it'.
12:39 - Thought 'fuck this shit'.
12:44 - Thought 'I would almost marry you if we weren't completely different people
and if you cared about me'.
12:44 + 3 seconds - Thought 'that was a lie thought'.
13:03 - Looking at myself in the mirror thought 'my boobs are rocking' and 'wish my
period boobs were my regular boobs'.
13:36 - Locked eyes with a man also eating an apple in a crowded shopping mall and
thought 'yes', 'we are different' and 'should we stop and chat'.
thought 'yes', 'we are different' and 'should we stop and chat'.
shop and they're on the mannequin so lots of girls will buy them I don't want
something everyone will have more so because others will look better in these
than I will' but with no self-deprecation, just observation.
14:16 - Thought 'hot ham'.
15:29 - Thought 'my goodness I am an adult this should not make me feel so trembly'.
19:52 - Buying cigarettes for my brother at the gas station thought 'do I look
awkward because I feel it' and 'hate the fact that the guy behind me now thinks
that I smoke'.
19:56 - Thought 'it would be good if people saw me singing into my hand microphone
it would make them smile maybe and even lighten up' but instinctively lowered
my hand when the next car drove by. Thought 'I am a disgrace'.
20:04 - Thought 'I do just imitate the singer's voice in a song' and 'I don't know what
my own voice sounds like'.
20:08 - Thought 'everyone's stoned on the highway they're all driving at 80'.
20:10 - Thought 'I don't know what my own voice sounds like' but in an exclamatory
way and 'it's hard to sing with it I don't even know how' in a sad way.
20:11 - Thought 'highway'.
20:56 - Thought 'this is what's wrong with the world' repeatedly.
21:15 - Walked on the treadmill and thought
'Uni Freight'
'Chipkins'
'Sea World'
'Triton Express'
'Greyhound'
21:43 - Really felt like scrambled eggs, found two hard boiled eggs in a pan on the
stove and thought 'yes' very happily.
21:45 - Cracked one of the eggs on the counter and raw egg ran out. Thought 'no'
very sadly.
22:16 - Thought 'sleep'.
23:07 - Thought 'sleep'.
